Tuesday, 23 June 2009
Dear bloggie,
wHOW I just came back from SIM.DRAMA DRAMA DRAMA follows me everywhere i go !!Guess what This just clearly goes to show that I am FRIGGGING DISORGANISED yes i did submit my application forms together with everything else but i clearly remember packing in my preety picture next thing i knew it was missing even lalita saw i packed it in..Well nvm went there panic attack and then went to take pic arghh so friggin pissed at maself for being so disorganised oh how can i 4get REKHA = DISORGANISED ..SOMETIMES i wonder how on earth am i doing events anyway i am just praying very hard that i get accepted because if i dont i really dont know what to do ..I have no backup plans or whatever not i dont wana do SMA Murdoch cos they obviously want me to take their dip in mass comm which is stupit and no other sch i feel is as good as RMIT in singapore for mass comm according to me ..Anyway bhagwan pls pls give me a chance out of the many chances you have given me i am so sorry i didnt fully utilise it but really after my O levels double time,Poly repeat,Now FINALLY some brains to do uni or want to do uni dont reject me bcos of my GPA .i Really am trying .PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE!I promise promise promise to complete my studies properly this time around at least no more supp ppaper if you ask me i finally realise the importance of education and grades.Anyway i am alone in the office everyones just gone back some didnt come well yeah sitting here typing away.Yest guess who i saw ..SANDEEP!!YES you heard me right!I am not very happy i saw her ..well i really thought i missed her but when i saw her all that came to my mind is FAKE FAKE FAKE FAKE FAKE ASS!sorry pardon me i am not bitching behind A EX PAL back i can say it to her too FAKE FAKE FAKE U'RE A FAKE ASS BITCH.when i saw her i wanted to sms vish but only to realise that kuku is prob having the time of her life with her family in malacca...HAIZZZ i am so dependent on vishnu indirectly manz anyway yesterday bumped into her i didnt noe to say hi or not but i did anyway.So we spoke nono let me correct.SHE SPOKE and i yawned for 3omins?oh well yeah i can be quite a asss.Well the convo was HI rey u lost weight!I like that and me going like oh yeah okay.And then she went on like i dont know what i am doing here bcos i asked her so wat are you doing here.And i was like okay.she ssaid shes seeing some angmoh guy whose stayin at holland area.so i asked apartment zit her exact ans was NO PENTH HOUSE and i said yeah la apartment.i can be quite a bitch also la hahaha RELAAX ARR WOMAN THE PENTH HOUSE NOT YOURS WHAT!!hahahah and then she said how shes meeting anothe rpunjabi guy for a date i just looked at her and smiled and looked away.Me and sandeep are like lauren conrad and heidi.Sometimes the past cant be erased.But yet was beautiful but along the way we just became very different.And she preached on how she was never like that and stuff and used to be 1 man's girl and now shes many mans girls.Sorry sands the other meaning for that is a slut.well true what.HOw many angmohs you want!1ST URE DARN TYPICAL PUNJABI URSELF!Y ACT TO BE SOMEONE YOU'RE NOT just because u sleep around with angmohs doenst make you an angmoh ..just because you drink smoke and party like crazy doesnt make you angmoh.1ST youre 24 yrs old!!GET A LIFE!If men are your life then i feel sorry for ya sista!Okay seriously i dont like such people and its not like i did nto try to change her.I tried and got so hurt in the process only i know what she bitched abt me .And she said yest well rekha this is what happens when you're 24 and single i just smiled away well I AM SINGLE TOO BITCH!hahahah seriouly i am over making someone my life and stuff i got to have respect for myself and i cant help her someone whose using her beauty to climb up the ladder.And sadly it wont work for us indian gals biatch!Okay i am really pissed why is my pal like that .To tell you the truth more than anyone MORE THEN EVEN DIVYA ...I REALLY LOVED SANDEEP LIKE TO THE MAX CORE!!SO MUCH!!it hurts that we just cant click or see eye to eye!As much as i talk to her she just comes and say rekha youre jus conservative blah blah blah and throws this entire negative"Good words" at me and seriously i been there ..Not to that state but i know how is it like losing a bf and stuff but dont be a bitch Seriously!!haiz i am just fustrated to see someone I LOVED BE LEIK THIS EVEN NOW I LOVE HER but its just over you know.everyghings just done when i realised shes just another sweet talk hypocrite pal on the list of my friendship.So yeah.Oh well i just pray for her thats all.I really dont understand why shes this desperate for guys and sex but seriously we dont need man ..At the end of the day we came alone to this world.We are leaving alone too...all this is just stupit ...Have one not many ones.haiz i dont know and she kissed me on my ear b4 leaving i just olooked at her and kept quiet and said bye.SHe said i love you meri jaaan ..I just went like okay whatever!Trust me i been hurt by her the most out of everyone ...And seriously this week made me realise I DONT CARE ABOUT ANYONE ANY PALS ANYMORE.maybe i am in a weird mood but i know who my pals are..I am done with pple trying to contact me and say oh u mia or oh u this and that u noe ..I just lost it for friendship...To be honest i dont even know whose my real pal and whose not but all i can say is i am glad i have vishnu..Shes like e best!as stupit as it sounds cos i only knew her last year.Shes just str8 to the point and i love it because shes real to me and if i annoy her she tells me and we move on we dont just kp holdin on to grudges .I really liek that.We can talk abt anything and everyghing and no matter how busy she is she entertains a goon like me who comes out with my own set of shit for random reasons.I am just so glad i know her.I think thats the only other good thing that came from caroline.HHAHAH vishnu..a blessing in disguise..ahahaahh VISHNU U multi focus lens u better be coming home soon!!BECAUSE i miss ya and it just sux not having you around ...your no1 dependent pal ahhaha Rekha...hahahha
Anyway carol and me had another round of drama yest.She came over because my mum invited her and suddenly she just went into anger and left because i didnt want to hug her ..Obviously why would i but then i sayang her forehead because she was sick la omg genuine care but nothing else.And she send me so many smses SAYIN HOW bad i am..haizzz....
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