Wednesday, 13 May 2009
Hail English
I am trying to ponder upon what should i type in my first entry on this "Hail good english" blog.Which is created for the good intentions of improving my english.
Typing this way makes me feel tensed,nervous and conscious of my surroundings.I feel surpressed.How do i type in proper english and yet engage readers to read on?!Do i speak about controversial issues?Current issues?History?blank page fills my mind like that of empty tanked that's being pumped in with petrol at ESSO station.I do realise i am trying hard to make it seem interesting but it's not getting right.My 1st attempt,therefore please be kind and give me some credit.
Oh well , i went for my second lesson of basic counselling course.As strange as it sounds it was fun especially the role play where i was the counsellor counselling my teacher.Well i handled it preety well.Someone even feedbacked that i should be a lawyer. As crazy as it sounds.well a blonde lawyer if thats what they want.ex, someone who would fight for justice over crowd hopping,snatching of the last back available on rack at the store,telling impatient taxi drivers off.oh well,and the list continues.Let's just say i was very confused when someone told me such positive things about myself.i felt really helpless few days ago as to which degree should i even take.Honestly,i love helping people, but that help and advise that i offer to people may not be the counselling aspect that i was looking at.It's preety tedious, because someone's life is in your hands.Contrary to mass communication, where a company's image in your hands.Its like that of a contra entry being made in a ledger.Well Alice was her name .She told me "Rey your personality is that of a mass communication graduate.If you went into counselling it would be a waste of talent and you're not someone who takes time to think of the various events that you could do.You're a creative individual ,dont waste it".These were her exact words.She even mentioned if i ever go into counselling, i should handle only youths who are dropouts from school and i will be a good counsellor in normalising these kids.Well true,infact very true.I am very good at normalising kids.I cant handle addiction or cuts because i cant relate to them at all.But when it comes to normalising people, i have personally tried in on my ex and current boyfriend and it works.I am glad i spoke to her,she really made me feel good about myself .
After which i met this guy Arren,he's from action for aids orgz.Needless to say he's a Gay.He's really hilarious and for some reason we both clicked.Trust me he's such a diva.Gays are fun and should i add bitchy.But bitchy in a good way.It was weird having someone who was so much more prim and proper then me and who was a guy. Yes, Victoria secrets perfume was not spared at all.It was flushed in great amounts in the lift,walkways and mrt station.I felt like i was walking next to the bottle of VS. The hair was neatly swept across his face every moment the wind blew.Oh mine!It made me doubt my identitiy as a girl.He was so much more feminine and well dressed and well mannered then me.I was astonished at how Gays portray more feminity then girls ourself.And out of the blue he mentioned that "it's obvious that you're a bi-sexual". My eyes hunted him down like a fox gettin ready for the kill, with thoughts like "dude are you out of your mind how can one even look bi-sexual".And he actually read my mind and responded"the way you talk to guys is like I'm attached back off! and so much more "brudda" "and the way i talk to woman, i watch what i say and am more prim in the way i seat.Well that was preety true,i do feel more comfortable with man then with women.How weird,and that could possibly lead on to how i used to be a tomboy during my younger days.Somethings never change do they.But i am just suprised that he's got such good observation skills.I mean its not for nothing that people came out with the whole theory of how gays are sensitive,intellectual and people's person.Indeed they are.
It's sad how some gays are not living up to the best they can do because of gender crisis.There's alot of restrictions in the type of employees an employer can hire.And sometimes people like this get forsaken of chances that come by.Its not like they dont want to be "normal".Believe me, today i heard someone saying how homosexuals are not normal.But yet when i asked him to define what was normal he failed to do so. Just because there was an adam and eve,it doesnt mean that 2 eves or 2 adams cant be put together .Why cant people be judged positively for choosing to immerse out of "Adam & Eve"theory.Its not like we chose it,no one wants to be born having a identity crisis.It's easy for people to condemn but can they live as that person for even 1 day.With social stigmas thesedays,it makes it preety much impossible to even come out and say "Oh i am a homosexual,etc"But yet this group of people who come out are often labelled as "Weirdos","Swines",the people that contribute to the rising rates of HIV , "the cursed bunch".Like i said if you want to condemn, try living as one of us.A man and a woman can easily get married anywhere in this world.He or she can express his/her love through any channels of the world.But what do the rest of us do?We dont even have the blessings of our family/friends.All we get to do is cohabit without a status quo and people who know nothing about this talk alot on how its wrong etc.I am sorry but i feel that "the un norm people " as what most people call us "crook people" some of us are more die hard lovers than the rest because its not easy for us to have relationship and yet we fight for it with our loved ones.Just to let them understand who we are.Oh well its complicated.I dont expect everyone to understand,but at least RESPECT.Its crucial.Its not like we are asking you to understand and walk the journey with us but we are also humans.We cant openly say "we are married".And imagine 2 people madly in love yet cant get married just because we are adam and adam and eve and eve.Its subjective but dont discriminate if you can.Alright i have typed alot for the day,shall carry on tomorrow.Let's just conclude my entry with "Hail English"!
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